Wednesday, August 16, 2017

"Lord I Believe...Help My Unbelief!" 

A few years back I organized a virtual pilgrimage for my parish, Saint Margaret of York, presented by the North American Lourdes Volunteers. It was through the Lourdes Volunteers that I first experienced Lourdes, and subsequently volunteered in Lourdes with them. After this virtual pilgrimage took place, a parishioner contacted me sharing that he felt his son had a healing that took place as a result of the graces of the virtual pilgrimage on that November night in 2013. 


I had traveled to Lourdes a few times prior to the virtual pilgrimage, had encountered the message of Lourdes, and even learned of the many miracles and inexplicable cures that have taken place there. Yet, did I really believe this still happens today? Does Jesus, through the intercession of His Mother, still heal those who come seeking physical, emotional, and spiritual healing? I would have liked to have said with unequivocal doubt, "Of course I believe this. I believe that Jesus does still perform miracles- that He does desire to heal us all of anything that ails us." Yet, like Thomas in the Upper a Room after Jesus' resurrection found himself saying, "Lord I believe. Help my unbelief.", I too found, and still find, myself echoing this same prayer. So, when I received an email from the father of the boy claiming his son had received a healing from the intercession of Our Lady of Lourdes on the evening of the virtual pilgrimage, I didn't really know what to think. 


Fast forward three and a half years, and I found myself this past week discovering Lourdes through the eyes of this same child, subsequently one of my students a few years ago, and his family, as myself and Adam journeyed to Lourdes with them in thanksgiving for the gift of his healing. I listened as he shared that his favorite part of the pilgrimage was going in the baths. I observed him finding fascination in the stories of those who have had miracles that have taken place in Lourdes. I witnessed him bravely agree to share his testimony and story with the medical doctor at the sanctuary, who is entrusted with the job of determining if in fact a miracle did occur through the intercession of Our Lady of Lourdes from a medical perspective. And, I was reminded that this young boy, my friend Trevor, was placed in my life as my student and spiritual child to teach me a profound lesson- a lesson in faith, a lesson in hope, and a lesson in love. What a witness he and his family continue to share and give glory to Jesus, through Mary's intercession, for his healing, and more importantly for the gift of faith given to their family as a result of his healing! 


Our meeting with the doctor in Lourdes! After taking this picture, he asked that we air drop it to him so he could tweet about meeting an American family! And tweet he did! 



Each summer, as I pray over the class list of my incoming students, my prayer is always, "Lord, please place the students in my class whom I need to learn something from. And please, use me as a humble instrument in their lives to draw them closer to You." As the upcoming school year approaches, I pray this same prayer fervently. I am in awe of how the Lord continually answers prayers- prayers for healing, prayers for my vocation as teacher and soon-to-be wife, and prayers for many other things. As I rejoice in gratitude for the time in Lourdes spent with my fiancé and my student's family, I pray that Our Lady may continue to intercede for myself, my family and my students to draw us closer to Her Heart and the heart of Her Son! 



Our Lady of Lourdes...pray for us

Saint Bernadette...pray for us 

Mary conceived without sin...pray for us who have recourse to thee! 


The Blessing and The Gift 

Lourdes...a place so near and dear to my heart. A place, that just eleven years ago, I so intimately met Our Blessed Mother and encountered the presence of Christ in a profound way. Since Holy Week in 2006, I have been drawn to Lourdes four more times. Each time Our Lady and Her Son have made it abundantly clear why this small town in the Pyrénéens tugs at my heart in an indescribable way. 


Sure, it is beautiful- breathtaking actually! The hills of the mountains envelop the town of Lourdes in a majestic sort of way, casting their light and shadows upon the small but bustling town. Yet, in the sanctuary of Lourdes, the peacefulness and quiet hush reign. The cacophony of prayers being prayed and sung in a variety of tongues from around the world unite to form a melodious worship of Jesus and give honor to His mother, Mary, and her yes- her yes to being the mother of Christ, our spiritual mother. 


I recall the first time I entered the baths in Lourdes, greeted by the loving embrace of fellow volunteers from around the world, who had given of their time to continue to pass on the message of Our Lady of Lourdes and greet all pilgrims with that warm embrace that Our Lady greeted Saint Bernadette with in 1858. This message of love, of embrace, was one I vowed to continue to strive to pass on to those whom I meet, especially my spiritual children. 


This time, my visit to Lourdes was different, though, than the previous ones. Rather than volunteering in the baths, I had the joy and privilege of sharing the message of Lourdes with those I most love- my fiancé and my spiritual children. Together, we followed what Mary asked of Saint Bernadette- that people pray for sinners, wash in the waters, and come in procession. We explored the sanctuary together, bathed in the waters of Lourdes, participated in the Rosary Procession, and received the sacrament of reconciliation. We relived a part of Saint Bernadette's life, as we traced her footsteps in the local town and visited the home she was born in and the house she lived in during the apparitions. 


I had set out to create an experience of Lourdes for my fellow pilgrims, and in doing so, Our Lady drew me ever-closer to Her heart, and thus the heart of Her Son. As I experienced Lourdes anew, through the eyes of first time pilgrims, three of whom were children, I was once again drawn back to the heart of Our Lady and untied with her mission of drawing others to Her Son by being His disciple. Lourdes was, once again, a blessing and a gift to me and my fellow pilgrims. 


As we return home this day, I am renewed in mission to spreading Her message and drawing others to Her Son, by learning from her about how to be a disciple of Christ. May she continue to lead us all ever-closer to Jesus. Amen 


Our Lady of Lourdes...pray for us

Saint Bernadette...pray for us 

Mary conceived without sin...pray for us who have recourse to thee!